In my last post I talked about making the mental decision to conquer the inner battles that I’m facing. It can be hard doing this own my own. I’ve been so lost in the mix of all my worry and anxiety about life, myself, and my future. I can spend so much mental energy thinking about something that I can’t figure out, or beating myself up about not being good enough, or just thinking about the worse possible outcome that could happen to me. I’ve choked myself up with so much doubt and fear, that I’ve blurred my own vision of myself and who I can truly be.
I’ve made the habit out of thinking like this so often that it’s really hard to break this cycle. Actually, the funny part is that when I rely on myself to rid myself of these emotional stressors, I beat myself up even more when I fall right into the trap of thinking the same old things.
Like I said in my last post, I really can’t do this on my own. I need more than my own strength to get me through these inner battles.
So how do I get it?
Okay, this is where it might get a little deep.
I also mentioned in my last post how there is a power available to us. This power is what can give us the strength to rewire the way we think about ourselves and our lives. I believe this power only comes from God. The power of God’s love is so divine that I believe it is the key to unwinding these negative mental patterns of doubt, self negativity, and fear, that I’ve engraved in myself over the years.
The hard part is trying to get past these feelings of doubting myself and even my belief. Sometimes I’m afraid that I might be off in sensing God or that I won’t be capable of fully accessing that type of power, or that it might sound crazy to think any of this is real.
So this is the direction that I’m going. I want to dig deeper into this idea because at this point I’m desperate. And there is enough evidence out there to show that God is alive and moving. So why not just take the step to believe that there is a divine power available to me that can heal my heart and mind completely.
My solutions to fighting these inner battles weren’t enough and they keep failing. I need something more than just myself or another human’s comfort. I need something divine to help get me through this.
Until Next Time.
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