So...I know there's a saying around somewhere about chasing butterflies, and I never really got it until now...when I had literally been chasing a butterfly. Before getting distracted by this beautiful creature, I had been thinking (of course) of something I just should not have led myself into thinking about; which would have led me into going back and analyzing, trying to figure out something that I wouldn't end up getting the answer to, because it ultimately isn't up to me whether I can get the answer or not. The answer will come when it comes, or it might not come at all, but guess what, that's not up to me.
And you know that can get frustrating sometimes because you might really want the answer to a particular situation sometimes but you just can't get it. Just like how I really wanted this beautiful brown butterfly that I saw laying out in the street to stay still so I could take a good picture of it. But it seemed like no matter how close I got to it, it just kept flying out of reach. Finally, I gave up and went about my way.
So, while I was beginning to analyze another situation (again), that's when I saw that beautiful brown butterfly for a second time! And it landed in the street just like before, but this time I was able to pull out my phone and get really good, close-up shots of what this butterfly looked like (and it had its wings laid out for a while too, as if it just knew it was getting some model shots).
I think me chasing that butterfly, was--is-- kind of like me chasing those answers. I'll either try to get them and not have enough knowledge to reach them or the answer will finally come and stay still enough for me to see it up close and get a better view of the situation. You follow me? Either the answer will stay flying in the air or it'll finally land and let me see it, but either way, nothing I do to try to catch it will control when the answer comes.
So why keep wasting my time chasing that butterfly with it's own mind? When it lands is not in my control and that's how I have to start looking at these answers that I just can't figure out right now.
Until next time.
